big fat S

mood arini : sensitip

status arini : hell no...i dont need u to remind me who i am...tq velimuchi!

quote for the day is about anger :

"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you
will escape a hundred days of sorrow."
-- Chinese Proverb

"The greatest remedy for anger is delay."
-- Seneca.

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal
with the intent of throwing it at someone else;
you are the one who gets burned."
-- Buddha.

"For every minute you remain angry, you give
up sixty seconds of peace of mind."
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson.

"Speak when you are angry and you will make
the best speech you will ever regret."
-- Ambrose Bierce.

** my fav

Perlumbaan Ketiga

mcm perlumbaan kedua gak...

ni generasi ketiga...iaitu cucu mereka...

tp cita kali pendek....sbb arnab x sehebat kura2..

seperti biasa cucu arnab mintak nk berlumba dengan kura2 utk tebus maruah dia...

cucu kura2 refuse...tolak sgt..dia ckp

"sudah2 la tu....what past is past...nape ko nk berdendam ni..." - cucu kura2-

"argh...aku x kira..aku tetap nk berlumba dengan ko..keturunan ko penipu" -cucu arnab-

"oit..kita org x penipu la..kitorang cume cerdik sikit je dr korang...." - cucu kura2-

"byk la ko punye cerdik..mana ada org berlumba naek teksi..bapak lu sama atok lu tu penipu..

kalau lu anak jantan...lu lumbe ngan gua..ada bran??" - cucu arnab -

"oit..bapak ko x letak syarat pown kate lumbe lari..dia ckp.. ""kita tgk sape sampai dulu"" so kira salah bapak ko la yg cetek pemikiran...huh!! aku bukan xnk berlumba ngan ko..tp aku dah malas nk memalukan keturunan ko" - cucu kura2 -

"ko ckp jela ko takot" - cucu arnab -

"aku x takot" - cucu kura2 -

"eley...ko takot..." - cucu arnab -

"aku x takot, aku confident menang je..aku tau ko akan kalah" - cucu kura2 -

"bongkak sungguh ko kan..ape yg menyebabkan ko confident ko menang??" - cucu arnab -

"sebab...erm sebab....DNA kura2 keturunan aku telah ditukar...aku race ngan ko ke..aku lawan ko ke aku tetap menang...zaman dah hi tech der...family aku dah laen...x mcm family ko...DNA nya tetap sama.,...so aku lagi kuat..laju..kacak dan bergaya..." - cucu kura2-

"maksud ko" - cucu arnab-

"aku kan ninja turtle..ape ko dah lupe?"

buat masa sekarang aku di opish xda kerja..sbb tu aku merepak...sekian

Perlumbaan Kedua

setelah beberapa tahun berlalu...

arnab dan kura2 yg terlibat dalam perlumbaan dahulu sudah berkeluarga

mereka mempunyai anak....

keturunan arnab tetap dengan perangai bongkak mereka..

mungkin ia diwarisi...so satu hari ank arnab ni berjumpa dengan ank kura2

dia pown ckp..

"oit...dulu mungkin bapak aku buat silap...dia tito bwh pokok...

skrang aku nk rematch dengan ko...sbb aku nk tebus maruah aku..." - ank arnab-

"okie....dari mana hingga ke mana?" - ank kura2

"dr sunway sampai klcc, kita start pagi besok..okie? kita tgk siapa sampai dulu di sana" - ank arnab-

"okie...deal" - ank kura2

keesokan harinya mereka pown start la berlumba...

ank arnab dengan gigihnya berlari...lari dan terus berlari...

apabila sampai di KLCC dia nampak ank kura2 dah tunggu depan pintu...

sambil tersenyum ank kura2 ckp...

"penat ye?? nape ko x amek teksi mcm aku??"

Perlumbaan pertama

aritu lepak sambil dgr org 'besar2' bercakap...

tetibe dia cita pasal kura2 plak...tp cite perlumbaan antara kura2 dengan arnab ni

dia wat 3 version..hahaha....

perlumbaan pertama...

seperti yg original...

kura2 ngan arnab berlumba utk memastikan siapa yg lebih laju

mereka bermula serentak...

setelah arnab yakin beliau telah tinggal kan kura2 jauh di belakang...

beliau berhenti di satu pokok...niat beliau nk rehat je

tp tertito...

so bila terjaga..beliau terlewat....kura2 tu dah tunggu dia kat garisan penamat....

sian dia kan...

to be continue...

'HER'

"incoming...hehehe" the sound of sms coming in by worm sms alert

"baby, r u back in kl??? i nk beraya rumah u.."

"yup..rumah i xda kueh raya, x perlu beraya la"

"i dont wanna eat kueh raya..all i want is u ;) "

a couple of minutes later, he calls her...saying that he is downstairs of her flat..
she asks him to sneak in quietly...afraid that the neighbors would notice...
as soon as he walked in...she closed n locked the door...he grabbed her n kissed her lips
they did it..SEX...she knows that he is only using her for lust..but somehow she doesn't know how to say "NO".. she realized that it was all about LUST n not LOVE..but somehow she doesn't know how to stop..its not only wif him...but a couple of man more..the story goes the same...


after he's done..he take out his cigarrete n light it..asking her if she is fine...
she answer without interest...that she's ok...after he's done with the smoke..
he said "baby...i balik dulu ye..i ada kerja nk settle..i'll call u"
she smile..a fake one..cuz in her mind she said
"yeah..u'll call me when u r horny again, kan?"
huh..u should let it out babe..it shouldnt be on ur mind...
he kissed her forehead n gone..another sms comes in from a different person...
asking her the same thing...
wanting the same thing...she realise that they all the same...she keep on telling em that she is aint a cheap bitch..but she often fail to prove that to em...y babe?? y???


yes..i know that ur lonely...
yes..i know that u think ur not pretty enuff for em..
yes..i know that u think no man in this world would sincerely love u..
yes..i know that u think this is enuff..being wanted for a while is enuff..
U URSELF THINK UR NOT PRETTY N DONT DESERVE TO BE LOVE...HOW CAN OTHERS THINK THE OPPOSITE??

u said that if this is the way for u to grab their attention then it should be ok..
now tell me babe...whats wif the tears everynite??? whats wif the loneliness that u'v been feeling?? its so NOT WORTH IT TO HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT LOVE U..
come on babe...try to love ur self..then i'm sure one day someone will love u too...
u dont hv to rush..ur 23..go out hv fun with ur friends...change urself instead of trying to change others..

"r u addicted to sex??"
"no...i just love to be pamper...i just love when a man wrapped his arm around me..saying he love me...i just love it when they kissed me..n watch me sleep"
"yea right!!...n then when u wake up in the morning he is not by ur side anymore..r u happy??? huh!"
"yes..thats enuff..."
"pufff....BULLSHITS!! sometime u sort of like paying em for sex...they asked to borrow ur money n u gave it..even tho u dont hv enuff for ur self..y! doesnt what happen in the past teach u anything?? it doesnt mean anything to u isnt it??"
"...i dont know!!! can u stop mumbling..can u shut up..its my life..let it be!"
"sex with 48 man in 2 and half years..isnt that too much?? arent u afraid of the sins?? arent u afraid of ALLAH? arent u afraid of diseases from sex?? remember how the rapist took away ur virginity?? i think u deserve it..cuz u urself dont know how to love urself...u just know how to advice others.."
"shut up"
"but u dont know how to motivate urself..u dont know how to stop doing this...U DONT DESERVE TO BE LOVE...ur a SLUT ..a CHEAP WHORE..CHANGE IF UR NOT..PROVE I'M WRONG...or man will always look at u as the 'EASY' type..."
"SHUT UP!!!"






tears running down my eyes as i wrote this...i dont know how to help 'her'...can anyone???

Dear Encik/Puan/Cik BODOHSOMBONG

satu lagi perangai org malaysia yg aku x suke...

BODOHSOMBONG

ko ni bley x jangan salah ertikan komen org len...

jgn memarah org laen...ko sendiri pown x paham isu tu...

so kenapa ko nk bincangkan benda yang ko x paham??

tolong jgn bagi aku annoyed dgn ko....

napa xda gune id yg register..nape ko gune anom??

takotkah anda jika org kenal anda??

ko nk ckp soal agama ek?? okie fine..aku ngaku.,..aku x pakai tudung...mmg wajib..xda isu ready or x ready...dosa dia besar nk2 sbb aku tau menda tu...tp i choose to not wear...dosa dia aku tanggung...trima kasih kerna ingatkan aku ikhlas aku ucap trima kasih..sbb aku tau sesama umat wajib tegur menegur.....insyallah satu ari nnt aku akan pakai gak...

tp ko bercakap mcm org xda agama..ko sembur ayat ko macam org xda pelajaran...so mcm ne org nk respek ape ko ckp...mcm ne org nk trima ape yang ko ckp...

der...agama x mcm ape yg ko ckp tu...so baek ko jangan ckp...diam je...

LOL - Laughing Out Loud..ye dekat artikel tu aku komen "LOL" dear.....pernah ko tanye aku nape aku ketawa?? aku ketawa sbb aku x jumpe satu pown lagi org yang boleh wat aku kagum dengan hujah dia..mostly semua sama...isu ni aku dah lama tanye ustazah aku dulu...sbb kawan baek aku china..yup...dia budha...siap aku pernah tanye dia lagi..if aku nk masuk Church boleh x...if aku nk bace bibble boleh x...?i'm not obsessing but i'm just curious..n i love to seek answers for the quest i have in mind

aku bukan jenis org yg suke sembur org...aku jenis org x paham aku tanye..tp ko ada buat x ape aku buat...aku suke memerhati dan aku suke membaca..aku suke soal antara logik dengan x logik..aku jugak suke rujuk balik menda aku x paham dekat org yg ilmu lebih tinggi....mcm aritu aku tgk cite 'ayat-ayat cinta' aku tanye balik org-org berilmu....nape pmpn kristian yg koma tu boleh kawen ngan laki islam tu?? sedangkan dia belum lagi sedar n peluk islam..tp mcm ne dia ley kawen..mcm ne plak perkahwinan tu sah?? at first aku pk cite tu terpesong..tp after dapat jawapan dia...baru aku paham...

so dear...sebelum ko komen...ape2 yg ko x paham...sila tanye dulu...

sebelum buat ayat konon2 ko pandai...ko selidik dulu...jgn buat macam ni.,.yg malu ko sendiri jugak nnt...aku?? aku x malu...tp aku akan sentiasa senyum sinis dekat ko...sbb aku kesian dengan org bodoh sombong mcm ko...

laen kali bila mak anta sekolah...blaja ye..tunpu perhatian..sentiasa amalkan sikap x paham tanye..tahu!!??

confession on why i still x amalkan ilmu yg i ada:-

i believe in life kita sentiasa diberi pilihan..tipu la if korang ckp korang xda pilihan...akan sentiasa ada right or wrong...i dare to admit...i'm not ready to turn the wheel to the good path...but pls...dont judge me...cuz u might be surprise of who i am deep inside...i'm still on the journey to find myself and the truth...

p/s : sorry for the rudeness...i'm just expressing my anger