Acceptance

Glee Cast - I Feel Pretty - Unpretty



Hi there,

I watched Glee yesterday (yes..yes..i'm a GLEEK) and i fall in love with the episode. That's why this entry is here today. Yesterday, it was about acceptance. Its all about me, you, your bf/gf, your sisters, your brothers, yada..yada...human! Its about us people. Its about how and why we should accept ourself. Dont lie to yourself by saying you love yourself they way it is when deep down inside you, you want to change yourself. Thats why plastic surgeon exist. I too myself admit, i want to change my self badly. Sometimes i feel ugly, really damn ugly and how i wish i can be beautiful like my friends (yes...i got dozens of beautiful friends and i envy their perfectness). Here's a list what i dont like about my self :-

• I'm FAT!!!! - Seriously after finished my SPM i gained a lot of weight cause i'm not that playfull gurl    anymore..and i dont know why i'm not interested in sport anymore. Day by day i gain kilos by kilos. But i couldnt help it, i fall in love with food and cooking. I love to learn how to cook and eat. People make fun of me. Even boys always give me hard time, i still remember what my male bestfriend told me, he said "u and i are like soul mate, but if u're not fat i think ur more beautiful and maybe i'll make u my girlfriend". My mum and grandma thinks slim = beauty. I've tried to lose weigh by trying some of the product at the market but who am i kidding, i cant loose weigh cause i'm still the person who love food, glorious food! And now i'm kindda use to ppl calling me fat and i dont care bout it, cause i feel pretty, i feel hot and sexy to with this body.

• I have a male and loud voice - yuppie yup i have a big voice and its loud too. People at my office love to make fun of my voice but i just go along with em and make fun of myself too. Thats the only way how i wont get hurt when they make fun of me.

• I'm short - i always wished to be a stewardess. Awan Dania. But i have a short leg. I'm just 158cm. People dont make fun of my shortness but i find it hards to do things. I neet to climb on a chair just to get something out of high cupboard. Man, trust me..its hard.

• My eyes are small and my eyelashes are short - this one i blame my late grandfather for being a siamese. I want a pretty eyes. Eyes like cats. Eyes that can flirt with other human.

Hahahaha, i have a lot of thing to complain bout myself right? mcm org ckp la, "tak bersyukur la kau nieh!!!" Eleh, u guys r just the same...dont lie!! But even tho i cant love who i am, i'm thankful enough for my family, friends, my pet moms, and my bf for loving me like i'm perfect. Thanks. I will try to learn my self more and more, day by day ok. Thats a promise, and u guys should too~

p/s : i read in some blogs they said Glee is bad influence for us cause it is too open (gay and lesbian are accepted in that story) and those kind of ppl are wrong in my religion. So they asked to banned it. But to me, u just need to use ur brains, think outside of the box, think positively, see the good example they try to seal in teenagers heart not the bad one. 

Malaysian Driver and Their Civic Manner

Dear Malaysian Driver,

I wrote this letter (entry) to ask you, where do you learn your civic manner?? or dont you ever learn civic in your entire life before?? If the answer is that you never learn civic before than i understand your action this morning and forgive you. I advice you to go find someone who have a good civic manner and learn from them. It is even better if you learn it from a foreigner. Maybe u will give an annoying look to me as i say this, yes...i'm a Malay, its not that i worship those foreigner but i adore their civic manner. They know how to respect people, unlike you guys who's impatient at the road. Rushing like as if you guys dont break the rule then some body is going to die. Why do you have to learn civic? Owh, bodohnya kau untuk tanye soalan tu, civic lesson can help you to be a better person, you'll know how the law is made, why is it made, why you shouldnt break it, what is the consequences if you break it, you'll learn about your right, others right, what is your duties to your country, to your ppl, to your family, thus this civic lesson can make you know your duty as a citizen and help you respect people more than you do before. Please dont be selfish when u r on the road. Dont break the rule. Dont make others angry at you and point their middle finger in front of ur window. 

Musti korang tertanya² kenapa aku tulis ni..ok pagi tadi on the way pergi office, aku ngan penyu jadian aku pergi  isi minyak dulu dekat Petronas Kg. Penchala tu, yang tepi highway LDP tu...dekat ngan petronas tu ada traffic light tiga cabang la... tapi pagi tadi traffic light tu mati...x ley berfungsi...apa lagi mula lah rakyat malaysia yang bijak pandai ni bergerak dengan sendiri..dan di sebabkan dorang semua ni pandai-pandai,, yela bila dah mampu beli myvi and viva dorang pk dorang pandai la...dah boleh berlagak la...dah cukup bagus la utk buat undang-undang sendiri...so jalan yang sepatutnya 2way jadi 1 way secara tetibe...org dari petronas yang nk g menuju ke Kg Pencala (utk masuk pencala link) stuck sbb jalan dah jadi 1 way, yup salah sorang dr tu is aku...ye mmg kitorang naek moto, ley nyelit (kata kau!) tp sebab moto penyu jadian aku xley nyelit la kitorang x nyelit ngok..pastu kalau kitorang lepas pown korang x kesian ke kereta² yang laen..ape road tax kereta kau tu kau banyar lebey ke?? huh...aku rase moto bapak mertua aku punye roadtax lagi mahal dr kereta myvi, kancil n viva korang tu..(owh aku tau sbb aku ada viva) so dengan rase geramnya penyu jadian aku jalan je selamba sekat kereta lorong pertama, then kitorang jalan je jalan yang sepatutnya mmg jalan ke kiri bukan jalan ke kanan (owh x paham xpe...aku tgh geram) sambil jalan tu aku angkat tangan kiri aku, dan dengan x sengaja jari tengah aku tegak sepanjang jalan...hey itu nasib baek aku pakai wedges ini hari...lau aku pakai riding boots ke, safety boots ke..memang aku tendang satu per satu kereta kat situ...hak tui aku ludah korang..bodoh nk mampus...bila dah nampak org depan break rule jalan wrong way korang yang laen pown ikot je la..xda pendirian sendiri..civic kurang x pk kereta yang xley jalan tu lambat gak..terpaksa pusing g jalan jauh semata-mata sbb korang semua...manusia jenis ape korang ni?? ada otak je...akal xda..kerja bagus² tp bodoh gak...kalau tanye budak kecik pown dia tau wrong way tu salah..

Then ada lagi satu perangai malaysian driver (terutama lady driver..yup aku perempuan tp aku xkan side ngan perempuan bodoh ) nk masuk kiri kanan tak tengok kereta or moto...maen masuk je....bila dah terkejut time nk belok tu korang berhenti mengejut...jadah lancau mcm tu...bodoh ke ape...bahaya tau x....tu la gune side mirrow ngan review mirror...tengok la dulu baru masuk...time nk amek lesen dulu beria² bace buku law jalan raya tu...bila dah dapat lesen ilmu tu letak kat tapak kaki, sambil tekan clutch ilmu tu pown penyek..last² lupe ape yang blaja dulu kan...jd la bengap balik sbb tu banyak excident kat malaysia ni...

One more thing lau ada excident lau rase nk tolong, berhenti tepi tolong, kalau xnk jgn nk berhenti or bwk kereta slow² then stare kat kereta yang excident tu..korang boleh jadi salah satu sebab kenapa jalan jem...bukan kereta yang excident tu yang buat jem...tp org bodoh n x pk pasal org laen mcm korang ni la yang wat jem...menyusahkan org je jenis org mcm korang ni...menyampah aku tau x!!!

Superwoman is my mum!!!

Aku ingat lagi
cerita mereka tentang apa yang berlaku
sewaktu aku masih bersembunyi di dalam mu
kau sentiasa di pukul bertalu-talu ;
di herdik, di caci, di maki
oleh insan yang kau sayangi
itu tidak apa lagi
luka mu di tambah;
dengan mulut lancang betina yang tidak punya harga diri

aku kagum, kau kuat!

bukan senang menjadi isteri
yang mengandungkan seorang bayi
tambahan lagi seorang yang degil dan keras hati
haih...dapat ku bayangkan ;
sakit badan mu pada waktu itu
hanya tuhan saja yang tahu
ditambah lagi dengan emosi yang terganggu

aku masih lagi kagum, kau kuat!

10 bulan aku membebankan mu
aku tambah lagi dengan 23 tahun kerenah ku
itu baru cuma satu
kau ada tujuh yang memerlukan mu
bukan senang menjadi wanita seperti mu
ya....aku tahu dan hargai semua itu

hurm...kau memang kuat!

aku sedar selama kau hidup
kau tidak pernah bahagia
hidup kau tidak pernah sempurna
hidup kau penuh dengan duka ;
kau membakar diri mu
berkorban selalu
bukan hanya untuk anak-anak mu
tapi untuk adik beradik juga pada waktu dulu
kau lah 'superwoman' ku

kau kuat, tersangat kuat!!

sekarang, dengar kata ku
aku berjanji padamu ibu
akan ku cuba sedaya upaya ku
akan ku kerah kuderat hanya untukmu
menjaga mu selama mana yang aku mampu
kerana kau telah cukup berjasa pada ku ;

ya Allah.
kau berikan lah aku masa
supaya umur ibuku panjang sentiasa
aku tidak mahu dia menutup mata
sebelum janji ku padanya
terlaksa dengan sempurna

p/s : i heard ppl said mother's day can't be celebrate but if i'm celebrating it just for the sake of appreciating my mother than what's wrong with it???!!!! this kind of thing sometimes can remind us of what we often forget, it can give us a quality time, it can create more bond between a mother and her children, cause we r human that always take things for granted...yes we are...